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Happy Birthday Chinen Yuri!!!!!!


It's the Little Giant's birthday tomorrow, November 30 ^^
Photo post of my Beloved Chinen!









Hey! Say! Jump <3
L-R: Standing/sitting on something XD:Takaki Yuya, Morimoto Ryutaro, Arioka Daiki, Nakajima Yuto, Chinen Yuri, Yaotome Hikaru, Okamoto Keito
Sitting on the Ground: Yabu Kota, Yamada Ryosuke, Inoo Kei

Sorry for a long post and there's no cut. There's a problem- I can' t cut the entry. SPREAD MY LOVE for CHII~ I'll post some pictures soon, of course with a cut next time because it will be loooonger. :)

Mata Ashita~

Yeah, we did assembling and disassembling again. It's M16 A1. This time it's less than 45 seconds :D.OH how I love M16 than M-1 and M14. Though my thumbs hurt and my nails got chipped. Oh, and my middle and ring finger got flattened(?) by the gun. I just wish I'll pass this time.

After that, we went to Intramuros. It was hell fun! We're center of attention because of our clothes. You'll know why. Pictures will be posted soon. Foreigners took pictures of us since we wear the same clothes. It's a moment to treasure. WOW!

Convention plan, I wish there's no transportation problem or any problem/s. Well... it's coding on Monday. Haha! I wished I know how to commute. Magpara nga ng tricycle di ako marunong eh hehehe... *sigh* well I'll be comming with my BFFs.

And again no pictures. I just keep on posting again with just texts. Sorry.


I'm sleepy already and I'm expecting that tomorrow our bodies hurt again.

What a loser I am... I failed the M14 quiz :( I won't forget the part "Connector Assembly". It's too hard for me to move. I was crying and can't stop while assembling and disassembling the rifle.It's funny and at the same time irritating. I did my best but why did I don't do my best? *sigh* REGRET!!! I'll try my best in this last rifle- M16.

Anyone who'll be going to Herocon? With BJD? I miss to attend a meet. If anyone who is an owner that will be attending tell me so that I'll be sure to bring Cin with me. Well, I still don't sure myself if I'll be attending this con too XD. hahaha Sensya na magulo Utak ko eh hehehe... I'm always not sure with my plans (BJD plans, remember?) and I'm also afraid to down people whenever I promise so I always say that "I'm not Sure".

And that con will be on November 30 (er... right?) and that's my CHINEN YURI's Birthday >_< Kyaaa~ *cough**cough* I'm not used in fangirling too much. But I <3 him anyway. I also haven't take any photos of Cin. Dad's cam is easily to lowbat and the batteries are not rechargable. But I need too for the photography club's exhibit.

And lastly, I've watched Paranormal Activity. I thought it was real but when my classmate told me it's just a movie. MADE. I like it anyway. The movie is good.

oh I'm sill going to do my report. Ja ne~

My body hurts because of field stripping yesterday. Now I know how to assemble and disassemble the US rifle caliber 30 M1. Next time it'll be M14 rifle and M16 armalite. Our hands are like Longganis(food) because of rust and blood. I'll post pictures soon but I'm not the one who took them. It was fun and I love to do it again. And the Lomi in Batangas is really memorable. I really enjoyed it because we got a chance to laugh and be close that time, yesterday.

I don't have latest pics of Constantine since I'm busy. I miss taking pictures of him :(. I also haven't draw lately.
I also loving Souldoll's L-Heart.

I found my notebook where I write quotes and our cat Soel died last night.

   Gosh~ After SemBreak another busy week. Schedule for the week:

MONDAY: ordinary day but with CAT(today)
TUESDAY: ordinary day
WEDNESDAY: cards out~ NOOOOOO~
THURSDAY: ordinary day with CAT
FRIDAY: Parent Teacher Conference (half day)
SATURDAY: CAT whole day [rifle(kalasan ng baril)/Weapons Training and COPA practice]
SUNDAY: @ St. Benilde exams (last one!)

MONDAY-FRIDAY: ordinary week T_T

BUSYBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSY~

 Anyway..... Today's my Grandma's birthday! Happy Birthday!
And also belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY for Ms. Nix! :)

 ( Short Negativity Ahead.. )

"Never Give-up, Because When you Do... Life is Worthless..." - I invented the quote Myself XD

  Photos first of course :)

 

My boy is back with a close-up. I'm using my dad's digicam and look at his pinkish cute lips :)

( Constantine :P )

"No Rain, No Rainbow..."
 

 I had a really good time with my classmates a while ago. Though we're only half our class :( (we're 18 overall, we're 9 a while ago). It's very tiring but I really enjoy~ next time again guys~

We did ice skating and I'm getting better (anyway, I use roller blades when I was a child so I guess it's an advantage). By the way, the place was MOA (Mall of Asia), seaside part/Manila Bay. And before we went home we waited for the sun to set:


  

( Very beautiful scene :) )

"In physics, you don't have to go around making trouble for yourself - nature does it for you..." - Frank Wilczek

    I haven't received any e-mail/messages lately and it's kinda boring.  Classes will be resuming tomorrow. I don't know but I still don't want to. I guess there would be no sem break anymore or perhaps we will graduate on April T_T. Because of the storm, schedules are totally ruined.

    And yeah, the person on DA has been banned HURRAH!

    Anyway, I've been mentioning the Citizenship Advancement Training (CAT) so I'll be posting some pics from their facebook account. Photos are not taken by me since I'm in those photos :))

   

( CAT pics under the cut! XD )

"Still Alive and Kicking!..."

                  

       Happy Birthday Lord Constantine Von Lheikkrenovelle!!! <3


 He sure is still in one piece :D

   It's in my head last night:

     A fine hot weather in a tropical country. Yder was assigned in a public hospital with hundreds of patients. Bringing along Ace with him since no one is going to take care of him for the day.

    Yder was too busy so Ace was playing all by himself until he needs his father's attention because the crowd was getting bigger. Ace started to look around and shouted "Dad!" while the crowd was continuously increasing. But his father seemed to be very busy to notice him. And again he keep on calling his dad but again his father can hardly notice little Ace.

    He is a center of attention because of his blond hair and blue eyes. Obviously he is a foreigner. Almost everyone who passed him turns head on him. Poor little Ace and was more confused and scared, can't do anything but to cry and shout "DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" and at last, he caught Yder's attention. Then Yder just smiled and said "Come Ace" and put him on his lap.

     *** I imagined Ace after crying having red cheeks like apples. Yder is a very great doctor almost like a genius so he is always assigned to go to deifferent places.
           I'm not really good when it comes to writing. And my English deceives me. Oh well, Go Rhapsody in Blue!
     *** And C.A.T. news~ I'm in in Maharlika Platoon and yey! I just need to do my best to stay. I feel sorry for something about it. I'll just keep it to my self. I don't know but I blame myself. I'm too soft.
     *** Also no classes until Tuesday *is happy* :D though it's not flooding anymore. The Typhoon made a big impact(I don't know if it's the right term). I'm lucky not to experience flood in our street but I feel sorry for the others :(.
    *** I also got my phone back and bought a new sim. Unfortunaly, my mother uses my phone because her phone is LOTECH! as in Low Technology. The only one missing is to bury it under the ground six feet! It's all over... it's dead as in dead~ can't be use anymore!

  I'm always lazy to upload and post photos after I took them that's why they always end up being deleted. Anyway, I took this yesterday and my pants got a very little hole (I'm expecting already It'll get bigger soon T_T).
  
   Pics!!!:
 
 
    
   Soel!! very adorable! He's very curious with the cam. I like him than his sister Larg. Yep, Soel and Larg's names are from Clamp's Mokonas (Soel= white & Larg= black). I need to extend their names XD.

( More fun under the CUT! )



"It's the Little Moments that Makes Life Big..." - Norman Douglas

    Photos I took month/s ago. Hehehehe...

     

( Read :)? ) 

    I deleted some old journals. Hmm... i think I should be sure on what I am saying and be comfortable or else I'll keep on deleting :).

    We have a lot of days with no classes. Especially every Monday. And again EDIT: on another Monday, there would be no classes because it's the end of Ramadan. I really enjoy vacations^^. 

    And it's decision making time. La Salle Benilde or Taft or other? Psychology or Multimedia Arts? If I'll be studying in Benilde, I'll be taking Multimedia and if Taft, I'll be taking clinical Psychology. Hmmm... tough decision. But anyway, I haven't submitted forms yet.

   Must.... enjoy.... childhood.... as much..... as pssible~ XDDDD.

     Uhm... well... I think it's obvious that I'm a person who lacks(a little) self-confidence and is always conscious on what I always say. I realized that my story is not clear so here, a little background about it (I just cleared my mind on what I want it to be):

    Maybe this is a start for me :D

    Title: Rhapsody in Blue (music made by George Gershwin)
    Creator: TwinMonogatari (aea&gh)

         
( About a Family with Members who has Different Stories )

  Should I stop the hobby?......

  I love BJDs and I can't deny I'm obsessed with it. But... I don't have money, my plans failed, I can't show Cin's character..... I'm a FAILURE!! I can't buy things for him. My plans.... plans.... I just keep planning. I'm frustrated! I'm pissed! I don't know what to do >:(.  I want to explode!!! I want to give-up but don't want to. Did I made a mistake in entering the hobby? I don't know what to do. I want to complete my plans- characters just like everyone else ;(..... My actions in this hobby are just limited.


 Though... I'm happy to have him.... I'm just too fustrated. I did actions to some of my plans but the outcome is just different :(. I've waited so long but ended up disappointed.

 I know, this frustration will go away. I hope it's soon.


EDIT: I don't want to depend too much on others on this hobby especially to my parents. But for now I guess I'll be a little dependent to my parents.
         Thank you very much for the cheering and advice everyone :) I really appreciate it. I'll try my best!

  I got Constantine's clothes.... well actually only the coat and its black sleeveless. To be honest I'm not happy with it. First, I've waited for almost a  month just for the clothes(actually they are still doing the shorts). And second,  It is too big for Cin, the fitting is not right. It'll fit on a stuffed toy. I guess it's really hard to sew a small clothe*sigh*. It's just that... I'm disappointed :(. Oh well, mom said they'll do something about it.

  :), have some photos

 

 
The shirt is from Ms Nerakk(the green one)

( More :) )

"Walang Panis sa Taong Gutom... :3"

The Little Ghost
                          by Edna St. Vincent Millay

                    
I KNEW her for a little ghost

That in my garden walked;

The wall is high -- higher than most --

And the green gate was locked.

 

And yet I did not think of that

Till after she was gone --

I knew her by the broad white hat,

All ruffled, she had on.

 

By the dear ruffles round her feet,

By her small hands that hung

In their lace mitts, austere and sweet,

Her gown's white folds among.

 

I watched to see if she would stay,

What she would do -- and oh!

She looked as if she liked the way

I let my garden grow!

 

She bent above my favourite mint

With conscious garden grace,

She smiled and smiled -- there was no hint

Of sadness in her face.

 

She held her gown on either side

To let her slippers show,

And up the walk she went with pride,

The way great ladies go.

 

And where the wall is built in new

And is of ivy bare

She paused -- then opened and passed through

A gate that once was there.

*****
      Somehow this poem reminds me of Medieval :).

Medieval is my sister's Original Character.

*****
 EDIT: I'll just try to find more poems to represent my characters because I like it XD if someone want to do the same go on, I think it's fun :)

"Literature Imitates Life..."

 A while ago, my cousin went home(in our house) from a store, bringing along him a dog. It's not his but it followed him. It looks like a golden retriever. I don't know what's with my cousin but whenever my cousin runs away from him, he runs after! And now he's crying outside as if my cousin is his true owner. Oh poor dog. I want to keep him but I don't know if he has an owner T_T.

 And the clothes that we're waiting are.... still.... clothes. I thought I'll get it last week but they are too busy to sew something.. more.... important? I don't know but I'm impatient about it. Well... It's Better to Have One than to Have None...

 And I just submitted some drawings that are scanned and yay! for that :) ON Deviantart!

http://violent-sweetdreams.deviantart.com/art/Follow-134300778
http://violent-sweetdreams.deviantart.com/art/Butterfly-Dream-134302430
http://violent-sweetdreams.deviantart.com/art/Bannie-and-Annie-134304283

 
"Did you Ever Enter Into a Room and Forget Why you Walked In? I think That is How Dogs Spend Their Lives..." - Sue Murphy

EDIT: "view of you pity"? Urgh... I skipped words! (supposed to be: View if you pity forgotten photos)

 Post some "old" photos...

  

( View of you pity  )
"Art Hath an Enemy called Ignorance..." - Ben Jonson

 Here I am typing while doing my assignment. We went to San Juan, Manila a while ago because tomorrow is my grandfather's birthday and since tomorrow is Monday, we celebrated early. I forgot I have an assignment T_T. I'm too lazy to do it. And yesterday, guess what? It's CAT again. I got toasted. My tan skin became more... tan0_o. We did rescue thingy activities. It was fun, though :D. And oh, we did an activity where we gonna pull a patient on a stretcher up on the school's billboard and when the sample patient was about higher than our Commandant the rope snapped. Good thing Commandant was under her. He knew that the rope will snap. I heard a sound somewhere on the billboard and had a feeling something would happen. And the fun thing was whenever we'll heard an explosion( they used a fire work, the five star), we have to duck on the floor and put our hands behind our heads. Anytime they would light up a five star so we have to be ready XD. I dove on the floor, inhaled the dust on the ground, lie on the red ants, lie under the heat of the sun etc. Though, it was really fun.

Hope you still understand my English XD.

 And last time I wrote emo things since I often keep my anger in school, often, to myself. Yes, I deleted it again. I often post here about those kind of things but ended up deleting them. I don't like posting on my multiply since many people who I know(and know me) could see them. And I'm too uncomfortable. So I came up with an idea! Whenever I feel lonely like wtvr, and thought of posting it here, maybe I'll post it, of coarse under a cut, but then if I feel better already, then I'll delete it. *thumbs- up* *nodnod* To be honest I'm not comfortable posting it here too but I have no choice. I'll end up expressing my anger..... somewhere/ anywhere else :( (and I don't say badwords so it's harder).

 Hopefully, I wish I could get Constantine's clothes tomorrow. And LOVE for Dolkot!!!

 Happy Birthday Lolo(Grandfather)!!!